The process of losing your mind, or keeping small changes in it, is interesting though painful. Afterall, who are you, really? Do your thoughts not have any bearing on who you are?
So depression deals with identity. Sometimes depression is even losing the point of oneself.
In some depression we do not like who we are. We do not like our thoughts, our mental self and we do not like our physical self either, usually. We simply reject ourselves completely.
Who am I?
That question tends to go around and around the mind of someone in depression who is trying to think themselves out of the illness.
When it comes to depression and who we are, the first thing to do is relax. Relaxation is essential. It's not easy but even if you manage just a few minutes each day it will all add up for your mind to be able to make repairs.
In depression your identity can get lost in the illness. You can even begin to think you are the illness. That this is the normal you. It is not. It is not normal to have self-hatred. It is common but it is not meant to be.
Writing down your values is a good place to begin. They may have values such as honesty, respect or kindness.
Next ask yourself, do you treat yourself with these values? Are you kind to yourself?
In depression the answer is likely to be no. In depression we can be absolutely wicked to ourselves. Insulting, unforgiving. We can literally attack ourselves.
This is the illness.
It is not you.
Recognizing this is the first step to recovery. Recovery from a serious illness always takes time so be gentle and patient with yourself. Offer yourself little rewards every time you take a new step in bringing yourself beyond depression and into the lighter side of life.
Your identity, who you think you are, is an important step. Do you think you are a burden on society? Do you think you are unwanted? What sums up how do you feel about yourself?
The next step is to correct that. If you think you are worthless, remember it is the illness giving you that thought. You are not your thoughts. You are the thinker behind the thoughts.
One day, in the future, you will look back and realize that, yes, you did in fact lose your mind.
And you will be grateful that you did.